Monday, July 23, 2018

Manufactured Dreams


his words were carefully chosen
emotional overload followed
future faking 
constant attention 
love bombing
all strategic, all part of an overall plan
for those dear hearts who still believe
hopeless romantics, 
everyone...

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Sunday, July 08, 2018

Mirrored Lies



I found myself outside myself
in the middle of a silent scream
where black is white
up is down
and you,
are nothing but lies

I told myself 
this could never happen to me
for I was far too advanced
to be dissuaded by deceit

lackadaisical linguistics ran right through 
and captured our dreams of forever
and always,
there could never be another
for we had found our other half

all we had to do now
was believe.

my first mistake...






© 2018 Alisa Js

Tasteless



and for a time, we were alive again
singing in the rain 
soaring past the pain of remembering
those cold, dark stares
that brought to the forefront
blades that somehow found their way
to splice a throat to no longer speak
the truth

laughter came easily as the wine flowed
and how we bowed
once the struggles slipped
beyond our grip and once again
I began to believe,
this could almost be

until the demons 
arrived.
creeping around each tortured smile
the lies began and I knew, 
it was over

broken ties
mismatched lies that never quite fit
timelines next to impossible
and still you expected me to believe

in the face of high improbability
you continued with the farce
and then, I knew 
you were nothing more 

than tasteless ...

© 2018 Alisa Js

And So It Goes




and so it goes
along with everything we thought we knew
everything I believed 
all the things I loved
all of them
not true

the energy has lifted
it's so bright in my world now
serendipitous sayings you shared
all of them lies
all of them, 
you

how could I have fallen
how could I have been taken
there must have been something 
you saw,
some weakness in me
my glaring naïveté
in trusting everything you said

and like a vulture 
with a condescending smirk
over and over again 
you lied

until I almost believed...




© 2018 Alisa Js