Wednesday, August 29, 2018

After Thoughts, a Series





it was in the midst of everything
that suddenly I realized
and stepped outside myself
you were never real.
I was in love with a ghost
and like this lonely lemon tree
I will find the will to survive

AlisaJs(c)2018

Monday, August 27, 2018

After Thoughts, a Series



I want to say the words
but your heart knows,
I feel its beat
each time we speak
thunderstruck...

alisajs(c)2018

Sunday, August 19, 2018

Loose Ends


it wasn't supposed to end like this
with so many hanging syllables around certain
random questions
you know what I mean,
the ones with multiple answers
and we don't even have one
never accepting, 
only to find out it never was

so, where do we start or have we lost the beginning
trapped in a maze of unfettered steps,
right here at the starting gate
although it's been years now
and no one, but no one dares

and me
here I am, still anticipating
for what, exactly
wondering at times, 
if I've lost the ability to see
while
stuck in this canundrum
paradoxical dilemma,
trapped in a loop
that never returns ...


alisajs(c)2018



Saturday, August 18, 2018

After Thoughts, a Series




I have loved you for a thousand years
and yet,
each time I hear your call
my heart skips two beats...

alisajs/2018

Wednesday, August 15, 2018

After Thoughts, a Series




I miss our conversations that stretched
into the next sunrise and beyond,
never ending.
finding laughter and so much more
how could I have known
it meant nothing to you,
as I stand here 
dumbfounded,
drowning in this pain...

alisajs(2018)

Saturday, August 11, 2018

After Thoughts, a Series



you blew into my life like a hurricane
knocked down my defenses
within the first week.
soulmates, love hard
always be your baby.
jack knife
splattered hearts,
and you call me crazy?

AlisaJs(c)2018

Friday, August 10, 2018

After Thoughts, a Series




I still find it so hard to believe
that you behaved like that.
Hot to smoldering
and then evaporate,
without a trace
after I called you out
after I wouldn't take 
your inducement...


 AlisaJs(c)2018

Let's Learn Manners





Mommies and daddies
Around the age of two,
Teach your children
To say, 'Please' and 'Thank you'


From: Let's Learn Manners, a children's book. Coming soon. Illustrations and story by: AlisaJs

Thursday, August 09, 2018

Let's Learn Manner's .. rough sketch



Make time in your day and take your nap. Listen to the melodies, such a beautiful cat.


 Rough sketch from Let's Learn Manner's, a children's book coming soon. Illustrations and story by: AlisaJs.

Wednesday, August 08, 2018

After Thoughts, a Series





It was somewhere left of heaven
the last time I heard him speak
his voice, like an angel
how my heart broke in pieces that day.
still processing thoughts of betrayal...

Alisajs (c)2018

After Thoughts, a Series





and just like that, he was gone
a deafening silence.
where there was once laughter 
and enticing anticipation
demoralized is too nice a word...

alisajs(c)2018

After Thoughts, a Series







He promised me forever 
and like a fool, 
I ran to the end of the rainbow, 
certain to find him waiting
next to the pot of gold
like he said he would...

alisajs (c)2018

Monday, July 23, 2018

Manufactured Dreams


his words were carefully chosen
emotional overload followed
future faking 
constant attention 
love bombing
all strategic, all part of an overall plan
for those dear hearts who still believe
hopeless romantics, 
everyone...

7.23.18/alisajs

Sunday, July 08, 2018

Mirrored Lies



I found myself outside myself
in the middle of a silent scream
where black is white
up is down
and you,
are nothing but lies

I told myself 
this could never happen to me
for I was far too advanced
to be dissuaded by deceit

lackadaisical linguistics ran right through 
and captured our dreams of forever
and always,
there could never be another
for we had found our other half

all we had to do now
was believe.

my first mistake...






© 2018 Alisa Js

Tasteless



and for a time, we were alive again
singing in the rain 
soaring past the pain of remembering
those cold, dark stares
that brought to the forefront
blades that somehow found their way
to splice a throat to no longer speak
the truth

laughter came easily as the wine flowed
and how we bowed
once the struggles slipped
beyond our grip and once again
I began to believe,
this could almost be

until the demons 
arrived.
creeping around each tortured smile
the lies began and I knew, 
it was over

broken ties
mismatched lies that never quite fit
timelines next to impossible
and still you expected me to believe

in the face of high improbability
you continued with the farce
and then, I knew 
you were nothing more 

than tasteless ...

© 2018 Alisa Js

And So It Goes




and so it goes
along with everything we thought we knew
everything I believed 
all the things I loved
all of them
not true

the energy has lifted
it's so bright in my world now
serendipitous sayings you shared
all of them lies
all of them, 
you

how could I have fallen
how could I have been taken
there must have been something 
you saw,
some weakness in me
my glaring naïveté
in trusting everything you said

and like a vulture 
with a condescending smirk
over and over again 
you lied

until I almost believed...




© 2018 Alisa Js