After Thoughts

the lies on the back of her hand told me everything
as I listened to your impotent attempts to explain
flimsy,
flaccid ...

I watched as the words were never given their proper exit
half-witted
they died on your tongue and fell flat,
you can do better than that if you tried
I've seen it before
I was amazed, once
in some other universe
the one filled with trust
now empty,
with the occasional expulsion...

they sound more like after thoughts to me
guess you think I'm not aware
not that it registers
I don't know
why you simply don't bother
don't take the time like you used to
I feel her every time we speak

life chugs on
shake, rattle and roll
snake eyes,
freed from your narcissistic abjection ...
(1.21.08)