Tender Love

Your tenderness reveals
Flashes of your soul in surprising ways
Caring compassion touches me right to my core
And I find myself falling in love all over again
With you …

How could I not want you for all time?
Your sweetness seductively taunts me
Teasing me, such torture
I need more …

Let us soar away where no one can find us
You and me, we have so much time to make up for
We will fly to heights of the heavens above
And live in our love for all eternity ...


(10.29.07... thinking of you, my darling...)

My All

it was a risk I gather, to follow my heart
as I can't find my way back to before
nor would I want to,
not really, for I've known such happiness here
in the light of your love
experienced pure joy
ecstasy even,
scattered with storms, unexpectedly
when those dark clouds loomed large on that horizon
but that's life,
together we'll manage, somehow
I'm here for the long term, I've decided
regardless,
it's you and no other ...

many have tried, both in your life and mine
yet, here we are
still standing, our eyes on tomorrow
great expectations await,
let us gather our courage
strengthen our resolve,
and toss out those nagging suspicions
spiked with doubt,
sprinkled with fear ...

take my hand with your heart
I'm yours for the asking
you're all I can see and believe in,
scary, it's true
I'm petrified,
but so willing to be here with you
in the smiles of our love,
the truth of our being
tell me, you feel this way, too ...

there's no other that sends my heart racing
the thought of you has captured my soul,
your kiss, inexplicable
your touch, amazing
your love,
my true treasure
my all ...

(by:ajs.9.23.07)

Destiny's Plea

and what if I needed you, my love
to be strong if I wavered inside
unsure of these steps, shaky at best
would you wrap your strong arms around me,
assuring us all would be well
that together, we'd make it, somehow
telling me you understood my heartache
my issues with trust,
my history with you ...

are you ready to face this reality
blow past misunderstandings, misspoken words
can we rise above the furor besides
that threatens with menacing eyes,
can we try once again
to soar higher,
confident of one thing and that's us,
regardless ...

we now hold this flicker of flame, so tender
seeking to know the wonder,
struggling to face life's uncertainties
tainted, without a doubt
yet willing to explore
bust open that door,
we've both run to and previously paused ...

watching our wishes glide on a feather
almost beyond our reach
but not completely,
take my hand
hold my heart,
be the man I know and desire
I'll be the woman your dreams speak of,
and together we'll flow
where we need to be
we'll take our time,
grateful for destiny’s plea ...

(9.18.07 by: ajs)

I Stand

having stood right here with precision's dare
I reached in and sliced
slivers of a trusting heart and kept each one
locked away for me,
to gaze upon each time I felt the need ...

to reassure myself I was in control
what a fool for believing
in ever after's dream,
yet I bought the song and danced a while
knowing all the time
I had those pieces tucked away,
behind the smile
behind the greed of never ending scenes
running through my head
for time and time not to ever be again,
I tried
and now, I wander in those fields of wanton lust
oblivious towards those tender souls
as they stray by
this realm I'm in
transfixed and petrified ...

you were the one who helped me through days and weeks and months
of rambling vowels and odd sequence,
I run into this wall of thought
can't press my way or won't
though I see your hand, feel your heart
on the other side
patiently,
you are where I need to be
yet, here I am
stuck ...

by: alisajs
7.6.07

The Corner

I stare at this screen for hours sometimes
Wondering to myself
Asking my lonesome

‘Could I ever get the nerve to get on that plane?’
‘Do I still have what it takes to put your mind at ease
or maybe not at ease
but affect you in some other way….

And I run back to what I know
Numbers don’t lie
Ink doesn’t tear off one’s clothes as they run out of space
On the page in my mind
And I’m back to where I began

Staring at this screen for hours on end
Gone to some place to hide
Screaming inside as it’s all I can do
To maintain some degree of sanity’s breath
Whatever that means

Or will I continue to write about anything but
The truth of my heart and wretched soul
How I’ve longed for so long
Yet not moved a step
Towards that which I’m certain
Ok, maybe not certain
But hopefully
Waits around that corner….

by: ajs
6.21.07

True Love

how could I stand here and offer you happiness
when true contentment comes from within,
if you're looking for others to fill you
complete you,
make everything right
then you've come to the wrong place,
as no way can I do that ...

what I can give is my heart's smile
flaming by yours,
and together we'll dance and enjoy
the pleasures that blossom
the tears we share,
storms we both face hand in hand,
racing through madness
fall on our faces,
roll past it and get up again
stare down our demons
celebrate our victories,
regardless of short term misunderstandings ...

if you're willing, I'm able
and we might have a chance,
to realize our dream of forever ...

Smattered

I search for those lucid memories
smear them one more time across these desperate eyes
for just another glimpse of that certain paradise,
at what I used to know somewhere deep inside
a long, long time ago,
back when the sun would truly radiate
all through my soul, unlike today ...

those hazy shades of gray and black
call to me, relentlessly
and I wonder
can I ever get it back
the truth of me
and not this mask I hide behind
this shell, so incomplete
fragments scattered
torn and dropped
unblinking,
left there in those silent storms
I ran, not knowing the why or how
in my quest, that incessant quest
for perfection's grade ...

I realize now
the mirror's not equipped
the image sneers and mocks
at what I've now become,
laughing stock of normal
normal never fit,
and strange is all I ever knew
smattered is my new abode ...

Aching

It's lonely here without your presence
I miss the feel of 'us'
Our private conversations,
Torrid sessions
No one the wiser,
Except now, maybe me

The dream lives still ...

There are days I almost believe
You never left,
If I have all I need, then why do I still want?
Incredible as it may seem
I can't forget,
The seduction of your touch

[6.7.07 by: ajs]

Musings

Will there be enough daylight left
On the floor of this decision,
Or is this the best we can hope for
Sifting through mired footsteps that still haunt,
On a cloudless midnight
As I search the heavens for a hint
For a clue,
For some semblance of reason to receive …

I’m afraid to remember, I think
Having misplaced my direction
In the soles of my shoes,
As I continue to deliberate my fate
Have I completely lost my nerve?
I wonder …

Could these arms ever hold you?
Will these lips ever taste
The rapture restrained in my rousing,
Released now in slumber
And silenced when awake,
Am I down for the count
Or only now, beginning
To believe …

By: alisa js
5.26.07

Potsherd or Papyrus

Have we no room for circumstance?
Gasping at white layered patterns in plain view,
Having heard somewhere this meant troubled potential
We turn our eyes inward
Maybe no one noticed,
As nothing was said,
It was all in that look
We kept walking …

I’m not sure if that was an apparition
Or a memory I didn’t remember until now,
Potsherd or papyrus
Bottle cap of fancy notepads,
Something or someone was there
And now, it’s quiet here …

Am I to believe in dreams again?
Is it possible for me to find the string that wanders within my midst
With both hands,
And these scattered thoughts
Run right into morning convinced …

By: alisa js
5.26.07

These Storms of Life

These eyes have strained to gaze upon desired horizons
Keeping the fragments alive here
Inside this ideal I have treasured
And managed to keep seeking somewhat
This vague rendering
Of happiness I remembered as a child and held dear,
Tendered by understanding
Sealed and kept near the harbor lights,
Carefully preserved all these years, tho’ battered
And bruised, unable to bloom in darkness and doubt
Those tender buds of promise, the hope
Reaching still, these fragile stems
We mustn’t forget the greater objective
Attainable,
If we believe and faint not …

Can this heart of mine rise above the madness
And cruel attacks from those lacking understanding
Compassionless,
Tho’ waves have hit hard with deliberate slashes wide
How can I blame and condemn,
Arrogance
Judgment
Condescending glares
All bitter fruits of ignorance,
They stand on the barriers and watch
And I will strive to muster the courage one more time
In the face of adversity
Certain of destiny’s beckoning invitation,
If I believe and faint not …

My Petition

if you listen, you will find me
between each layer of the songs we sang,
beside you in that flutter,
seconds before surrendering
right there, with every heartbeat's skip
the voice you hear
in the quiet of our winter's bloom
a whisper sweet
among these tears now trailing soft,
and if you look real close
you'll see
reflections of a soul like yours ...

I would never leave
for you're an invitation to a silent prayer
taking flight on wings, they lift
how the angels do resist
at certain times, uncertain
to withstand my final wish ...

(4.19.07
ajs)

Dream Dance

in a faraway madness
of some distant memory
suspended in time
we peer within

listen
is that music?
or just howling wind masquerading
smeared by some romantic notion
from some starry eyed soul
it will all work out somehow
in the end

but is that how you learned it?
or is this all in my head,
look how these angels all dance
on the head of this pen
the one in my hand
as I sit here and write
over and over,
these same words spill forth
onto this parchment
deep in my soul ...

I know he's out there
somewhere
waiting for no one but me
he loves me
I know it!
he tells me
each night
when he stops by ...

and together we dance around all those night seasons
to the music we hear in our heads,
language of shared hearts
he's mine
for always

you will find me
under the branches
basking in sunlight
waiting
its true ...

(by ajs; 1-2-07)

If

maybe it was in the way you glanced across
somewhat seductively
curious, perhaps
I knew from that look
you'd be a great lover
and I wasn't mistaken,
oh! how I do remember ...

the first night
racing fast with anticipation
around every word,
I watched from the inside
smiling...

your touch didn't falter
your kiss,
incredible!
lingering soft and aching across my hips
patiently waiting,
for that next step
we both knew
there'd be no retreat now,
flames high, spirits vying
come closer
come nearer,
I do remember
oh! how I remember ...

My Desire

there is always something
right there on the edge
crinkling with a smile
each time we get together
of something more,
always with you
and no other ...

I listen to you speak
and notice this something
your fire
desire
flaming towards me,
why?

yet, we are friends
no way to deny
did I make a mistake in not moving towards that next step?
my heart tells me
what I don't want to know ...

it's you
always been
you know it,
no matter how far I fly
it's you I keep coming back to...


( by: alisajs/03.07.2007)

In a Heartbeat

Won't you come and sit for a while?
Let me dust off these clouds and we'll sit here a spell
We can share a coffee and talk,
Go over our dreams and ambitions
One more time,
I need to know they are still the same
The same for you as for me
Since the last we spoke of
On that day in December,
The day you stunned and surprised me
By giving me everything,
Any girl could ever wish for
By telling me you'd wait
For as long as it took,
To get to the place of
'us' ...

You told me there was nobody else
And how could there ever be another,
My sentiments exactly ...

How you felt in your heart you were married to me
Our soul flame burning as one
Exactly the words I needed to hear,
You've become everything to me
My dream come true
All I want in a man
All I ever hoped for
In a lifetime companion,
Will I marry you?
In a heartbeat, I would
I live for that day ...


(by: alisajs/01.08.07)

Adoringly

won't you take my hand?
and walk a while with me
for a season or two, maybe three...

I can't promise you happiness
or make all your dreams come true
we know there are no guarantees
and that sucks, I know ...

one thing I can do
and this is a promise,
I can give of myself
pouring all over you
from this heart overflowing,
with love
adoring
and so curious ...

by: alisjs

Indeed

sometimes I get so very crazy for you
I know I don't have a right to,
my mind goes in so many directions
other parts, too ...

and I find myself
wondering,
pondering
all those 'what ifs' ...

you know I would do almost anything
yet,
I do nothing
but sit here and dream,
about one day
maybe,
who knows?
it could even come true ...

is it really safer this way?
to love you from a distance
or am I the real coward
unwilling,
if the truth be told
scared senseless ...

I go weak in the knees
every time I think,
of what we both know
could very well be ...

Let Me

I want to look at you
looking at me
and get lost in those skies
above the clouds
all around you and your eyes of blue

let me touch those golden locks
and bask in light of heaven's glow
everytime I get near
just like this
you and me
until time whispers, 'shhhhh'...

let me stay
right beside your heart so true
knowing there is a forever
as long as I have you
there could never be another
other than this man I see
this man I want so desperately
this man I crave, both night and day

I am faithful to this song
our song,
the one the angels sing
everytime we speak
everytime we touch
this melody of love
this symphony
our duet
known to only you and me
everytime our hearts do beat...

by: alisajs





missing you, my love...

This Gift

***Dedicated to my brother and sister in law
in celebration of their love and marriage
December 16, 2006***


Is there springtime in autumn
For those with a song
Waiting for words in just the right key,
Can there be a hint of a promise
Wrapped in a gift extraordinary,
Unlike any other
One of a kind
A once in a lifetime surprise,
Yet, not really a surprise as you've spent your life seeking
For just the right moment and season,
This gift now awaits
The unveiling,
Contents inside just for two...

It’s not the numbers alone
Or the container that holds
This gift,
Not seen with human eyes
Yet it exists,
There on the landscape of your soul,

And can only be opened and recognized
When approached at the exact second It was meant to be shared,
There it waits patiently
Just out of view,
Although its presence is felt
Unmistakably so,
When two hearts find their way
Without questions or doubt
With the knowledge that this love
Is unlike any other,
How could anything compare to this soul harmony?
Therein is the secret
To open this gift,
This gift of forever
To be,
Our love ~ eternally …

Forever With You, My Darling

Tell me again of your love and devotion
For without these words
I will surely fade and begin to die,
Like a tender blossom tossed carelessly onto a barren waste land
Without even a thought for those petals, tender
Or the noonday sun, burning and glaring, without reprieve...

Parched and thirsty I'd be out there in that desert heat
Bruised and battered by those winds fast approaching
On that landscape, dry
All I could see would be nothing, but maybe
Storm clouds advancing or is that a mirage?
Shrouded over that endless pounding
Of my heart or is that, now thunder? ...

For without hope and the promise of love
I cannot continue,
I could not go on
Tell me you'll wait for me!
Forever,
If it takes that long ...

For just one kiss
From your sweet lips,
I'd be restored and made alive, once again
To live within your love
To sing inside your heart,
Where I've always belonged
Only with you,
Forever with you, my darling...

by: alisa
11.27.06

Within my Heart

Dare I but speak this which I know
within my soul I see?
Or wait 'til time in destiny
to carefully reveal
All that I am, all that can be
The wonder spread before...

Starlight screams your name to me
Across the miles, beneath the sea,
Yet, to others all around
I walk toward the gift that awaits
Unopened ... just for me,
When we, with gilded eyes and hearts
Unhampered by doubt or misery,
Will revel in the magic
That surrealistic glow,
That beats within two hearts in sync ...

We knew it from the very start
Knowing from the beginning,
Timeless ...
Without an end
Forever,
Just like you, within my heart
Within your soul, I see ...


by:alisajs


"8 May 2006"

Someone to Believe

I need no longer look for love
or comfort from a dream,
Priceless lessons you have taught me
those, only you have seen ...

As others clamor with mindless chatter
Your insight reigns supreme,
You see beneath this outward shell
Into the depths of me ...

The little girl with arms outstretched
Sometimes sad and lonely,
At others, quite perplexed
For reasons yet resolved,
In need of someone
Loving and genuine,
Giving from the heart and soul
Someone to believe
Someone, who won't walk away,
From me ...

by: alisajs


"31 May 2006"

The Fragrance From Your Soul

I have written great epics of love for as long as I can remember
and once or twice nibbled on that savor sweet,
But nothing prepared me for the experience of you ...

Better than a dream
Surreal our days became,
So alive our hearts did sing enraptured by the melody
As we became each note and key,
The chorus of our minds caressed and impressed to mesh as one
and I found myself so willing to receive you all through my core,
As we danced, oblivious ...
That soulish dance of love so deep, entwined for eternity ...

Being with you allowed me to see for the first time
A reality there on that threshold,
Of all I knew
Of all I ever imagined,
Everything I believed ...

Scared sometimes, I'm sure you knew you had to know!
You've become everything to me
and I've lost myself loving you,
But love you, I do...

I can feel your passion and feel your fire
The serenade begins
and I'm back to needing you,
Needing to ...
Say once more how I stand in awe
By this fragrance from your soul ...


by: alisajs

[11.17.06]

There Is

Something about you touches me
In ways I have only imagined,
Somewhere, in those hidden realms
Forgotten, somehow
Till now ...

Spending time with you
We find ourselves near heaven's gate,
I never want to leave this place
This promise of a brand new day ...

Never thought I'd love again
Or find the time to know
The meaning of this fire within
Or feel your flame all through my soul,
To listen with a beating heart
Alive once more, to dream ...

Let us find our hamlet
Take my hand and see,
This world, untouched and so pristine
Anticipating our destiny,
There is a place
For you, with me ...

by: ajs
[6.20.06]

Reawakened

Something within you touches me in ways I have only imagined
You have slipped into my dream somehow
The one I lost, yet now each moment shared with you
Time falls away inside,
I never want to leave this place
This world of you and I ...

Never thought I'd laugh again
Or feel your love inside,
I want you for all eternity, right by my side
To know this wonder of the promise seen
Within your eyes,
When you slipped into my life ...

by: alisajs
['06]

I Love

I love the sound of your voice
Caressing my soul like only you can do,
When you call to me and say my name
In that special way, like you do
Only you ...

Listening to you breathe
Finds me flushed with desire,
Needing to get closer
I do ...

I love how you love a woman
A dream come true, completely
I love ...

by: alisajs
[6.21.06]

True Beauty

The beauty of your soul catches me off guard
And I find myself stunned with your magnificence right in front of me,
The tenderness and excitement of your love never ceases to amaze
And I am now understanding for the very first time
The meaning of the word I have always longed for,
Everytime I think of you...

You challenge me to be my very best
In ways mere words could never describe,
I can barely wait to show you ...

Ah! this sweet emotion deep inside is so brand new
Alive with only you,
How you have captured my heart completely
My great desire and endless dream ...




by: alisajs
[4 July 2006]

Your Smile

Why not take a chance with me as you had my heart from the very start
We both knew it too, just afraid to say
For the reason that somehow,
In some crazy way it would make us less than we perceived
A fool for love as some may think ...

If I am a fool for love, then let it be!
For we have always known the magic we share,
Just afraid to think or even admit, even to ourselves
Something we've always believed, finally came
To be in the most unusual way, yet who's to say
This cannot be?
Those with flaws of their own?
Dare to condemn this dream?
Dare to stand in the doorway of our destiny?
With their quiver full of doubt and fear
One by one they take careful aim,
With their talk of friendship and love ...

With you I have reached heights only imagined
Gone beyond my wildest dreams and touched them
Everytime we spend, regardless of the context
You reach right through and caress my soul, and
I could stay right here for eternity and live within your smile ...

by: alisajs
[8 July 2006]

Just Gotta Know

How can these feelings be denied?
It's been far too long, we've both felt them too,
Just afraid to say or even speak
What's so plainly obvious to all,
Yet somehow if we dance around these words
Crying to be heard,
Do we really think we can fool our hearts
Into believing -
We're nothing more than friends?
Friends of course, that goes without saying
But what kind of friend simply craves your touch?
What kind of friend yearns for more
And not from just anyone, only you?

How do I explain this passion within
That screams your name?
I cannot tame this fire inside that ignites,
The sweetness of your love incites me
Towards ecstasy everytime we open that door ...

I've got to know you feel it, too
How this burns right through my soul,
And I won't quit 'till I know for sure
The same is true for you,
I've just got to know
You need me, too ...

by: alisajs

[10 July 2006]

Mirage of the Mind

Being with you allowed me to believe romance could be,
If only from a distance,
Yet within each capsule of time and emotion
Breathed a yearning for more,
But why did you keep that away from me?
Always at arm's length and plainly in view
I would salivate as those promises stacked up so deliciously,
Each one on top of the other, just so
and yet I could never reach,
I could never get close, any closer than this ...

In fact now, as I sit here and reminisce
I am convinced of only one thing,
Which explains everything,
We must have stumbled onto a mirage,
A mirage of the mind in that alternate world
and for a while we were consumed with that love,
Peeking out, so demure ~ but from one heart, not two
Streams of blue, look how this flows!
Into nothing more than a sieve,
A scene in a dream or was that real?

Maybe we never had a chance
If it's all about reception
and we could never get close,
The string does unravel
and lead to a note,
Words under a tongue
Hiding still ...


by: alisajs
11.13.06

Destiny, Latent

How could I have known
The magnitude of your pull on me?
Every fiber right down to my core
Maybe I was blind or didn't want to see
Too scared to notice or even believe,
That a love I've always dreamed of
Was standing right here, in front of me ...

Ran like a deer straight into denial
Tortured myself over and over, senselessly
How do I go back to remove all your pain?
I know it's impossible, yet I hope somehow to erase
all those gray, dismal days you faced ...

I will forever remember
The promise of what could still be,
And on those nights when I'm dying inside
racked with this pain,
My only comfort will be
That at least, I do have a chance
to see, and for maybe a moment in time, taste
That which I've always believed...



by: alisajs

[25 July 2006]

I Wonder

Whenever I think of you as I often do
I wonder if you'd still take my hand,
and lead me into your reality
Show me all you shared
Just like we always planned ...

Would we gaze upon each other in absolute wonder?
The realization of a dream,
That finally came to be
In the lives of you and me ...

'Daddy,' Would I hear those words?
Spoken by tiny miracles we made,
Conceived in love and nurtured in awe
Absent from my life,
Unknown to my world
Other than as a little girl ...

Would you hold me close, so very close
Closer than I've ever been?
Stay with me through everything
Make me believe you're the only one,
Make me see the truth
The truth of me and you ...

I see you in my dreams, so clearly
and feel you in my heart intensely,
I need you next to me, for eternity ...
I've always known
and I can't stop myself from wanting you
No matter how hard I deny,
It always comes back to you,
and I wonder ...


by: alisajs(11.3.06)

Hopeful Romantic

I ring your doorbell
...waiting
With a bouquet of roses
Hidden behind my back
...hoping
To surprise you
In the most wonderful way

First you look out the window
To see I'm all dressed up
...waiting
To take you out tonight
...hoping
To take your hand
When we dance

We will make the moment right
With music and moving light
You know I will hold you tight

...you open the door


© Copyright by Vroom 2006
~Oct. 29th, 2006~

Soul Blaze

He can't stay away
She's under his skin,
But more than that
It's much deeper within,
This love she speaks of
Can never be quenched
When its real from the soul blaze, inflamed,
She believes in forever,
Forever, when love remains ...

On those nights when it's quiet
And he's home all alone,
He knows where to find her
If he believes
In her home, far above
All the clutter and clamour that comes with pretend,
For he knows she'd never settle for anything less than ...

by: alisajs(9.13.06)

Shadows

She comes in through the door filled with fabulous words
Her charms are not exactly what they may seem,
Tho' she banter and blush, is she?
Or simply a shadow in the soft, summer breeze...

He stared at her image for what seemed like days
Full of desire, he was soon flush with flames,
Needing her more than he knew what to do with
Surely, a friend would not lie or deceive, would she?

Seasons come and seasons go
Or at least we are told they follow an order,
Of some sort, set in motion by the ancients
Meekly, we listen and obey...

But what if, what was real
never really existed?
But rather a dream on the inside,
How many would choose slumber?
When they ultimately discovered
Reality is no more or no less
Than what you allow yourself
to perceive and recieve ...

by :alisajs

99.17.06)

Missed Destiny

Won't you let me do more than remember
Those awesome times seared in our souls,
You and me alone
With our bodies on fire, consumed
Needing more than we had a right to,
No other could ever come close, we both know
The passion and desire we fueled in each other
I need you to know I still go crazy
Everytime I think of your touch,
Alone here with these memories
What do I do?

They won't disappear, they don't simply turn off
and night after night they come, demanding
Release, but there's no you,
There's just me,
Fighting back those taunts of ecstasy's promise,
How they do challenge my sanity ...

Awash on these flames of forbidden desire
I want you only, with me
I want to travel together to those heights we both reached
and stay there for days like we used to,
I'm no good for another as they could never be you
Condemned now by missed destiny ...

by:alisajs(9.21.06)

When

If you have tasted that fire, unmistakable
Desire shared by two,
and those heights you both reached
Were ones only dreamed of
and written about down through the ages,
By certain great poets, romantic...

Tell me, how can you forget?
and simply go on
With your life as before,
Dust off your heart and step forward
Peering perhaps towards new horizons,
I remember a time when time was no more
Must have been something I ate...

by: alisajs (9.20.06)

Another Dream

'Another dream,' he mentioned and I thought about those words
'Another dream,' and I realized that part of me had somehow slipped away,
Slipped away but not forgotten, for dreams do give us hope
Without a dream we cease to live
And our world begins to fade,
Into those awful shades of black and white
and we can no longer see those stunning possibilities,
Still lingering there, on the canvas of our minds ...

I have seen those without a dream
As they trudge back and forth, sans any smiles
Forgotten faces void of joy and shrouded now
Under angry clouds of doubt,
Lost to fear, once their dreams slid
and left, stage exit right,
Don't know why they lost their way
And I wonder if they remembered, now ...

'Another dream,' he mentioned and I thought about those words
'Another dream,' and I realized
There is a dream that lives in me,
I just needed to see the best is yet to be ...

by:alisajs(9.21.06)

Passion's Crescendo

Was it a moment of recognition or simply a glance?
Caught in time and frozen there, suspended
Unlike a crystalline tear in the artic winds
Where no eyes could see,
The promise within the reflection
Captured inside that prism of light
Somehow awaiting release ...
We are all strangers when passing by
Each of us bound to our own destinies,
Alone, as we make our way or open
To wondrous possibilities
If we but allow our trembling hearts to believe,
The love that surrounds us, continously
The joy that awaits, so graciously ...

In the hustle and bustle of our busy worlds
Away from confusion and constant strains,
Removed from those memories, common
Of heartache, bitterness and gut-wrenching pain ...

There is still a place we can run to
Close the world behind, as we enter in
The music is low and seductively sweet,
Take my hand and we'll start real slow
Oh! To gaze into eyes of desire again,
As we linger around sunset with our choice of Merlot,
To find ourselves lost in this moment
Yet not lost completely, just suspended in time
Our words like caresses, tender,
We could stay here forever, staring at these night skies
Counting stars one by one as they rise,
Enjoying the heat now between us
Smiling, a bit shy as we make our way closer
Towards that flame, now enticing
and yearning for release,
Let us savor each drop of this fine wine
Taste on our lips, so inviting
As we move through each motion of passion's crescendo
Till daybreak finds us spent and complete,
No words need be spoken
No words can describe,
This knowing, now ours for all time ...

by: alisajs(9.22.06)

A Poets Song

Wrapped around this heart of time
Beats a song yet to be sung,
In the fullness of all we can be
And all that ever was,
And tho' we may be somewhat worn for wear
The notes are still in key,
Carried along by hushed whispered thoughts
Familiar melody,
Regardless of creed or tongue
Remains the same throughout the ages,
Weaving tapestries alive in the noonday sun
Monuments for all to read and stand in awe ...

For we recognize the blend of those shaded hues
That binds us all and gives us pause as we carry on,
Ever vigilant at the ready,
Soldiers we, in this shared crusade
On the frontline and we must agree,
If we succeed, it's because of you and I
But not alone,
For an army we've become,
Marching onward, ever forward
To reach that rising sun,
So we can take our turn to bask in victory,
Knowing that together
We stay strong
Memories replete,
We save them everyone
So tenderly,
And savor sweet our celebration feast
Enjoyed by all who know this song,
Every note
And every key ...


by: alisajs

For You

We shared that moment in time
Etched for all eternity deep inside our souls,
Tasted pleasures beyond description
Or this vain attempt by mere words alone to try,
And tho' tomorrow is not guaranteed to anyone
I would not change a thing,
Alter one word spoken in anger or lust
Brimming with that certain promise of love,
Blooming in tender buds
On the fragile stem of forever,
We both glimpsed together
and almost touched ...

For now, I'll hold this fresh bouquet of memories
To gaze upon when I smile,
When those thoughts stop by as they often do,
This door is always open to the wonder of love
To love and the splendor of you ...

I bless the day we met
My heartstrings profoundly caressed,
Thank you for that exquisite side you allowed me to see
But more than see, to harmonize and be a part of
Of that phenomenal experience of us,
To have reached those heights
Great poets have penned by candlelight,
From Shakespeare to Keats
My life has been blessed,
By the magnitude of your touch
Across my beating chest ...

by: alisajs

You

This love I speak of
Knows no deceit,
Never plays with a heartbeat
Trusting...

Heard the sound of a male voice
While waiting for a friend and watched
As she turned toward his face and smiled,
He reached out with both hands and slowly caressed...
I had to turn away
For I knew what came next,
I remember when a voice who sounded like that voice
Was you,
Misty memories peeked 'round
Fleeting shadows and danced in my mind
Of another time, when there were only two ...

'I love you', he said as held her
So incredibly close while meeting her gaze with a kiss,
How I could feel their desire!
Flash there in broad daylight
As I stumbled away in my tears ...

I Lost ...

There are these tears of great sadness welled up in my soul
Guess I believed in the dream,
But more than a dream, it was real to my heart
Real to my world like red jello,
And the sound of birds singing
In the dawn's first splash of sunlight,
They have nowhere to go, these tears ...
No one to share this pain that continues,
Somehow I missed the real meaning, if any
Lost the sound of your voice in the midst of that whirlwind,
Maybe I never heard at all ...

In times of recent upheaval with nowhere to go
I sat here alone and perplexed,
Stunned by the fact that nobody called
Nobody, that was you,
Strangers with weak smiles plastered across
Their nervous and sad faces, managed a feeble hello,
As they made their way past, searching for reasons, too
My phone lay there distant and tired,
Unlike my heart that kept pounding inside my skin
Next to nothing that mattered, except you,
But you were nowhere around, not to be found
And like a fool, I kept waiting!
Anticipating that call that would never come,
The questions that would never be asked ...

Because somewhere along the way
I lost the sound of your voice in the midst of the whirlwind,
Maybe I never heard you, at all ...

by: alisajs

What Kind of Love?

What kind of love stays within?
Silently suffering alone,
Away from the other, away from it all
What kind of love is this?

What kind of love says, 'see ya?'
Because I love you, I'll let you go,
Because you're so special, I'll just walk away
Because I care so much, we won't even discuss,
No need to share this with you
What kind of love behaves like this?

by:alisajs

This Side of Forever

We can no more deny this reality
Than to shout down the stars from their heavenly posts
As they look from above and concede,
Yet, here we are for all to see
Continuing to fumble with such eloquent words,
We're not fooling anyone, of this I am certain
With this talk of anything, but...

Our plans for the future and how we get busy
We keep running away from the truth,
But why?
Is it simply that, or maybe just
In all of our grandeur and get focused schemes,
Why do we keep running from us?
If we look deep inside to ponder this path,
Well aware there's some pain that somewhat remains,
The truth is, we're more than just a little bit scared ...

Tell me, how long can we keep looking
At anything other than what is,
Genuine, though the container be flawed,
Cracks in the ceiling, frogs in the dark
Desire still radiant, still patiently waiting
Burning for that mid-summer's release...

I have loved you forever, don't you see?
Stand I at the door and peek in,
Just one more time, I need to feel your touch
Feel you all through my parched and aching soul,
Now there, I've said it,
Watch those thunderbolts soar!
I can only get so close and no further,
If it takes all of time to stand next to your fire
I will be here, this side of forever ...

by: alisajs

Soul Serenade

I have always known since the first time we spoke
One word from your lips and I would love you forever,
Suddenly tongue-tied and stumbling around
I forgot what I wanted to say
All my clever comebacks soared away on angel wings,
My witty one liners abandoned their cues,
and I found myself falling
Ever deeper,
For you ...

My new morning delight
With you, now in my life
I am free to love beyond measure,
Ecstatic your heart beats only for me ...

I will be here, my darling
For you, do I breathe,
This love, eternally sweet
You are my soul serenade ...

by:ajs

Cravings

I am calling to you, can you hear?
Patiently and quietly where you left me
Full of seductive memories,
Here with my friends, we're waiting
Anticipating those good times again,
I know we're out of the way, but it's O.K.
We're used to the dark, no worries
Stop for a moment and reflect with me, please
When your eyes gazed upon
When your senses knew what came next,
How your heart beat double-time
As the match with eager fingers, lit
Flash of silver glint,
Remember? Ah Yes! ...

Feel me all through your soul
As you rush with me, heavenly
Ecstasy pounding your head,
You've got to have more
Just one more taste ...

Release me and let me know you again
I want you to need me more than before
I've been waiting so long, just for you,
Feel your desire, haunted
Tell me how much you've missed this,
I'm alive when you crave me
I know you want to,
I promise I'll never let go ...

by:ajs

Only Words

If all I have left are these words
I will gather them close and tenderly remember,
When they were alive on your tongue
and lived and breathed inside our dream,
Excitement punched the air around us
Screaming with delight as we sailed far beyond twilight,
Surrounded by enticement and promises yet seen
and I just knew we'd be together, forever
I began planning my days all around you,
Nothing else mattered and no one else dared,
So perfect we were, heaven unearthed
All my dreams at long last had come true,
I lived in a state of perpetual ecstasy
My life was complete,
I had you ...

Then suddenly, ripped from my world
Without warning, I found myself alone
and in my head, lingering still
Were these words of great romance waiting to be shared,
Now, they just sit there and stare into space
Vowels dropping and consonants slipping
Fell to the floor, stunned
And that's where I found them, today ...

If all I have left are only words
I will gather them close and tenderly remember ...

by:ajs

This Thing Called Love

Something slipped that day
Maybe it was in the way she pulled back her hair,
It wasn't quite right,
I sat on the sidelines away from the crowd
A silent observer, I was,
I didn't miss a thing, tho'
and watched it all play out right before my eyes,
It almost seemed scripted, somehow
So predictable was each move and response,
Conversations and nuance, I felt like I'd been there before ...

Funny how there's nothing new under the sun
Day follows night as the seasons line up,
One after the other, never out of turn
Springtime, Summer then Fall just before Winter,
I wondered if they were actually metaphors, perhaps
A clue from the universe or subliminal hint,
And the only ones not listening
As we fight against the grain
With our constant uphill battles,
Are us humans with our superior brains,
Yet, with all our advantages and abilities to think
Learn from mistakes and move on,
If we're really so much smarter than the animals and birds
Then why is it, we still mess everything up?
Especially, this thing called love ...

by:ajs