My Choice

I see your face in every face
out there in the sea of flesh and vague imaginings,
I hear your voice in my head telling me
reminding me
of all and nothing,
simple clues, so true
and this love I have spans time,
knows no boundaries and yet
I am here
without you.
why?
I must be scatterbrained ...

I watch and observe
and see them,
hand in hand, arm in arm
everywhere
and yet
I am alone,
the chatter comes and finds me
laying flowers at my feet,
I turn and walk the other way
past those kisses transmitting,
nothing compares to me and you
never could.
and that's what keeps me far from trying
memories
feelings
my desire for only you still stands
tall
how could I?

(ajs.8.23.08)